Miscarriage

After 6 months, I think I'm finally over it. I am not totally back to normal, it has given me severe insecurities - which I think annoy Boyfriend quite a lot - but I do feel that my emotional stability is back. I go through phases where one minute I hate myself, the next I think Boyfriend hates me. Sounds a mess, but you should have seen me 6 months ago, I was a weak frail little girl. I am nearly through it and just want normality. Insecurity is stopping me though. Wish I knew how to feel more confident in myself. I blame the bastards who broke my heart before Boyfriend. I am lucky to have him, he has done wonders for me.

When I was pregnant, I felt so sexy and alive. Then my whole world deflated around me when I found that my baby had no heartbeat and had to be removed from me. I underwent surgery and the next day I was in so much pain. I am sad that it wasn't meant to be. I can't wait to be a wife and a mother. I just think my heart has been broken too many times and I am taking things slowly now, don't want to get hurt.