Okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

Here goes.

Firstly I am still out of work. Been looking for jobs with agencies and applying to everything I see online, in the paper and at the job centre - had a few interviews and still waiting to hear back.

Had a lovely Christmas and New Year with Boyfriend, he was really good and stayed with me - didn't go out or do drugs, or smoke - so I was well impressed but as I've been at home, getting stressed about no work so we've been arguing - but whatever will be will be. All couples argue.

My poor ol' Granddad passed away last week. He and my nan went into a care home before Christmas and he rapidly deteriorated and lost lots of weight, didn't eat or drink. He had lung cancer very badly but I am glad he is now at rest. Funeral has been arranged for next week.

Things are tough as usual. But what the hell. You only live once.

I do not have a New Years Resolution this year. But I do want to start doing something on a regular basis to get me out of the house, learning something, exercising and meeting new people. Just haven't decided what yet. Ideas on a post card.

Lauren...

... you were right and wrong.

Yesterday I was pissed off because I had lost out on the only job currently on the market so I was depressed about that and needed some cheering up.

So I went home but Boyfriend was down the pub. Shock, horror. He didn't even come home last night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fucking jobless at Christmas

I've just had to phone the Job Centre to see how I sign on to receive JobSeeker's Allowance. I felt disgusting. I am now claiming the same benefit as the scum of society - and the boss is walking around with a Hugo Boss suit, Hermes tie and fucking Prada shoes - the cunt.

Bah humbug.

Various updates

The new Blackberry arrived on Saturday - it's great.

Spurs deserved 3 points on Saturday - I'm not biased, honest.

I hate working. Fact. I still don't have a job although do have a real interview tomorrow at a big firm in London and going home shortly to plan my stunning outfit and hair etc. Hoping I have a male interviewer so I can charm him into giving me the job.

Boyfriend is still behaving himself although I do believe when he went out on Thursday night, he did coke. No firm evidence to convict.

Decorated our Xmas tree on Sunday - I cannot wait to see what's in my stocking ;)

Unfair redundancy

I've just heard that my firm are employing people for after I leave. Cunts. I will seek legal advice and get a nice christmas payout I think!

Despair Gloom Anguish Misery Desolation

My life is falling apart around me.

Boyfriend troubles. Lost my job. No money for Christmas as Vodafone have decided to take extra money out of my account and leave me overdrawn, which was nice.

I am on the verge of a breakdown.

Interview #1

It's a telephone interview for a job I don't even want, as it's on a 6 month contract, but I may have to take it. Wish me luck for tomorrow morning.

Several angry issues

First off. Some rude girl started giving it to me for no apparent reason at lunch today.

Secondly. Boyfriend "doesn't feel like" meeting me from work now.

Thirdly. I have no fucking job.

I am a raging ball of fury waiting to explode!

Various crap...

Naughty Work Boy has not been on the scene today.

Boyfriend is going out to watch football tonight. Joy. I will have to 'look after' a drunk fool. Either that or he'll be coked up.

Visited an rectruitment agency - made me feel sad as I have just realised I have no idea what job I want and time is ticking. I need to start my CV from scratch as it's shit.

Oh and I've got a telephone interview for a job that I don't even want!

Two dreaded words. Credit Crunch.

So we all know the state of the economy and in London, it's hitting hard.

And it's hit me. I've been made redundant. I have between now and Christmas to find myself a new job.

All I keep hearing is: "Don't worry, you've got loads of time to get a job"... but actually it's just 4 weeks, I need to get myself going, getting my CV to every recruitment agency in town and office I know.

So here I am today, sitting on my laptop at home, taken the day off, and I have no idea where to start.

Is there any jobs out there? Will I get a good salary? Will I stay working in London???

Email snap shot

"Are you sure it’s Peter Stringfellow? I know there’s a lookie likey that I’ve seen a couple of times – sort of a cheaper tackier version if that’s possible – strolling up and down this road . . . "

I love AR. She sent me this today after Boyfriend phoned to say he had met Peter Stringfellow.

Cracking.

What to do.......

.... with my life!!

1. Get more motivated.
2. Start jogging/cycling more - even though it's bloody freezing.
3. Start up a part time course.
4. Work harder in the office, work later and better than everyone else. More dedication required to beat the credit crunch blues.
5. Save more money.
6. Do more housework.
7. Use contraception

OVERLOAD!

I have so much going on at the moment and I feel like I'm getting overloaded and I feel really stressed and run down.

I have a water infection so I'm feeling sorry for myself, my grandparents are very ill - one with no mobility and one with lung cancer, it's the anniversary of my nan's death so I need to visit her grave, I feel guilty about being ill because I have done no housework over the past week, I have no time in the evenings to do anything, I am run down so I just want to go to bed when I get home, my days are too long, work is stressing me out as they are making redundancies, my boss is a wanker, I need new clothes but have no money until pay day, my ex's have annoyed me by trying to get in touch, sex is a no-go because I am poorly so I am pretty frustrated, my boyfriend's son's mother is a cunt and I hate the fact that she has so much impact on my boyfriend's life.

There, rant over.

Today's email snap-shot

From: Friend at Work
To: City Girl
Subject: RE:
Don’t be wicked – may the Lord strike you down in your Gucci heels next time you are trying to run in them haha!
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From: City Girl
To: Friend at Work
Subject: RE:

Oh yeah I think I read that in a mag not long ago.
Us beautiful people should not be subjected to having to look at these strange people though. They should be locked away in a dark room somewhere.
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From: Friend at Work
To: City Girl
Subject: RE:

I cooked when I got in, from more shopping after work, then I watched a programme about a woman with giant legs in the Extraordinary People series – it was so distressing! She’s really really skinny – I think she weighed 20kg – 15kg being her legs alone!
x
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From: City Girl
To: Friend at Work
Subject:

Last night, after my storm down the road, I RAN down to the tube and thankfully made my train - phew. Running in those heels was a good workout for my thighs, even if I did look stupid.
How was your evening? We had dinner then watched Katie & Peter. Love that show. x

Car Problems? What car problems?

So, I get to the train station this morning in a rush as usual, and realise I've forgotten my season ticket so I go back home, and obviously I've missed the train by this point. I'm driving like a zombie, so tired zzzzzzzzzzz, then think I'll just take the morning off. Now which excuse is best - train was cancelled, pp (period pains for those that don't take advantage of being a woman!) or car problems. I opt for car problems. The office think I am waiting for the AA but in fact I am rolling around with my boyfriend under the duvet for a good 30 minutes, get up, feed the ducks, have breakfast, have a shower and get ready. It's now 10:30. Time to finally make a move. I get to work and blame the problem on the alternator and make up some fictitious story about how the car conked out, blah blah, called the AA, blah etc and got a later train into work. I got in this afternoon at 12:45 feeling relaxed and refreshed.

Wish I could do this every day.

Nightmare on Elm... ahem - Wall Street.

With Wall Street's big banks filing for bankrupcy and being taken over, it makes me think... I work in a small firm in the Corporate sector, close to the City but who really knows that their job is safe? With the credit crunch and firms being tighter than ever, how do you obtain job security?

I'm starting by pulling my socks up. I need to convince these hot shots that I am a valuable member of staff that cannot be replaced. I'm going to ask for extra training, work late etc - basically be an office bod. Those pictures of the Lehman Brothers staff carrying boxes from their office was pretty disturbing really.

However, whilst I'm working my arse off to earn my wages and make a good PA. Do I really want to work for a middle-aged, balding, slightly eccentric man who barks orders at me all day, and shouts at me when he loses something or his computer crashes etc?

Do I want to be brave and jump in at the deep end with a business idea of my own??