It's been ages since my last post

I'm pregnant, awaiting scan date. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

So fucking happy - at last.

Okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

Here goes.

Firstly I am still out of work. Been looking for jobs with agencies and applying to everything I see online, in the paper and at the job centre - had a few interviews and still waiting to hear back.

Had a lovely Christmas and New Year with Boyfriend, he was really good and stayed with me - didn't go out or do drugs, or smoke - so I was well impressed but as I've been at home, getting stressed about no work so we've been arguing - but whatever will be will be. All couples argue.

My poor ol' Granddad passed away last week. He and my nan went into a care home before Christmas and he rapidly deteriorated and lost lots of weight, didn't eat or drink. He had lung cancer very badly but I am glad he is now at rest. Funeral has been arranged for next week.

Things are tough as usual. But what the hell. You only live once.

I do not have a New Years Resolution this year. But I do want to start doing something on a regular basis to get me out of the house, learning something, exercising and meeting new people. Just haven't decided what yet. Ideas on a post card.

Guess who's baaaaaaaaaack

I've got so much to tell you all.

Ploy

Is he just saying this so that I feel sorry for him and forget about last night when he got fucked up and didn't come home?

Bombshell

HE IS NOT HAPPY AND DOESN'T KNOW WHY.

I'm so confused. My life is in tatters and I think he is about to dump me over Christmas. What a shit way to end a shit year.

and now he thinks...

... I am FUCKING nagging him.

What a cunt.

Lauren...

... you were right and wrong.

Yesterday I was pissed off because I had lost out on the only job currently on the market so I was depressed about that and needed some cheering up.

So I went home but Boyfriend was down the pub. Shock, horror. He didn't even come home last night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am fucking pissed off

... I can't even begin to explain!!!

Fucking jobless at Christmas

I've just had to phone the Job Centre to see how I sign on to receive JobSeeker's Allowance. I felt disgusting. I am now claiming the same benefit as the scum of society - and the boss is walking around with a Hugo Boss suit, Hermes tie and fucking Prada shoes - the cunt.

Bah humbug.

Various updates

The new Blackberry arrived on Saturday - it's great.

Spurs deserved 3 points on Saturday - I'm not biased, honest.

I hate working. Fact. I still don't have a job although do have a real interview tomorrow at a big firm in London and going home shortly to plan my stunning outfit and hair etc. Hoping I have a male interviewer so I can charm him into giving me the job.

Boyfriend is still behaving himself although I do believe when he went out on Thursday night, he did coke. No firm evidence to convict.

Decorated our Xmas tree on Sunday - I cannot wait to see what's in my stocking ;)